1st February
I just
finished reading ‘Link,’ by Walt Becker… do yourself
a favor, read this book… there are more insights about our past
then I had ever known…
Where
did the evolution of modern man come to the knowledge that we possess
today? The complexity about our understanding stemming from ancient
scriptures, science, yet where, from whom? Are we wise enough, does
our ego mind pretend that we have the answers to questions that lie
somewhere in the recesses of our memory?
I say,
we’ve never been alone… there’s an intelligence
far more advance then we ‘earthlings.’ … Earth has
been, and continues to be a training ground, a portal viewed by other
beings from the beginning of time, billions of years ago… how
arrogant of us to believe ‘we’re’ the most civilized
culture in this solar system… I know this is not true…
you know this also… you wouldn’t be reading all this wonderful
information that you’ve been receiving… not just from
mayanmajix. From everywhere… its appearing at warp speed…
it’s a beautiful thing…
We’re
not the superior ones, never have been, could we reproduce pyramids?
Move tons of rock with ‘our’ modern equipment? I think
not…
At the
age of six or so, I would climb into my favorite tree, there I would
sit, knowing there was another me on a distant ‘star’…
we communicated from a place within, even though I used my words,
I heard her respond with the same excitement I had… there was
a vow made that one day we would meet in Real Time…
Our time is drawing near, we know this, we know on a deep soul level…
as soon as this quarantine is lifted… I wait, I’ve been
waiting for over 50 years.
My challenge
is being patient…
Bertrand
Russell said. ‘Stress’ “One of the symptoms of an
approaching nervous breakdown is the belief that one’s work
is terribly important.”
When
my brother died at the age of 38 from a massive heart attach, it was
clear to me {at the time} that life, my life continued… Yes,
there was heart ach, fear, anger… I cursed god, renouncing my
belief in a higher source…
For three years I remained stead fast, holding my anger in check…
“If there’s a god, why would you take my brother?”
He was
so loved, so admired… When my family arrived at the grave site,
stepping out of the car, the hill side was covered with wonderful
well wishers, the vision of this took my breath away… I was
31, thinking my life would crumble, he held our family together, leaving
us behind, his wife and two small children… Why, I asked this
over and over, it took years before I understood all the ramifications
around his departure, years before my belief in god returned…
my parents never recovered from their loss, yes they lived on, yet,
how does one contend with losing a child? I pray I never find out…
My aunt son, also first born, {my first cousin } died on his Harley…
when I ask how she was doing, telling her I couldn’t imagine,
she said; “Don’t try.” I got that, why would I want
to imagine one of my children leaving before I… gaving that
one away really fast…
His departure was tragic, yet the gift that I know now is, no-thing
I do is taken for granted… every breath, each step in this journey
I’m creating, living on the edge… this life, my life is
for all of us, my brother is with me, always…
No one
promised us a rose garden, we can, with desire and tenacity create
the most magnificent garden that ever existed… plant, feed,
water, prune, nurture, love what you’re doing, before you know
it, the aroma’s from your garden will overwhelm your senses…
How beautiful is that?............. you have the know how, do you
have the desire?
If you’re
not living on the edge, you’re taking up to much space…
Thomas
Fuller said;
“He that wont sail until all dangers are over must never put
to sea.”
WHAT
ARE YOU……………WAITING FOR?
How right
do you want to be? Staying in a hypnotic state wont allow you to move
out of this paradigm you’ve called you’re reality, this
reality started at the beginning of your life as you know it, this
life time…
The door
to the box you’ve been in is right in front of you, you have
the key, USE IT… its beautiful out here, more magnificent then
you can imagine…
Remember
me telling you about the little boy that ‘couldn’t’
play with the hand puppets? He so wanted to touch them, yet fear kept
him away. How will this ramification impact this child’s life?
How do they impact your life? Do you allow yourself the freedom to
explore beyond your four walls? THE GARDEN OF EDEN is waiting for
you, you’ve received an engraved invitation… you don’t
need to RSVP, just show up…
Your
new suit is hung in the closet, its always been there, you’ve
even had it on a few times, yet, you hadn’t allowed yourself
to walk outside wearing it, you look in the mirror, turn around, you
know how wonderful you feel in it, yet, what happens? Where has your
mind taken you for you not to ‘show yourself off to the world?’
since you’re the creator, designer, player in your reality,
WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF?
Here, take the blue pill…
Don’t turn back, keep focused on your dream, your desire…
then, and only then will you be living your dream… going through
life saying,
“I wish I woulda done that…”
By reading
this I know you’ve been following my dream, my reality, I’m
inviting you to come play, release your inner child, the puppets are
waiting for you… your child is screaming to be released, don’t
hold back, this is your time, your adventure, I’m rooting for
you, the entire team is rooting you on, you can do it, one baby step
at a time, keep breathing, head up high, Father Sun is warming you,
directing your path, follow it, listen, do you hear that? Your child
is crying tears of joy, he’s be patient, keeping you stable,
waiting for this moment to be set free… your freedom will come
when you step off the precipice into the unknown… this is your
leap of faith…
1,… 2,… deep breath, 3
W E
L C O M E
It takes CHUTZPAH to step into the unknown…
2nd February
Lying
in bed last night, memories of those months when ‘Drama’
was my mode of life, the event that came to mind was the day at the
park, Reece’s birthday… Spirit had the run’s, there
were signs posted all over that ‘dog’s’ weren’t
allowed… my emotional state was outa control… allowing
my mind to lead me where ever it wanted, I know I gave in to that,
I was choosing that… feels insane now that it’s behind
me…
That was the day I hit bottom, it was a wooden barrel, my physical
body was covered with splinters… {that’s what it felt
like}
With
everything I’ve been experiencing, I still find it amazing and
mandatory that these experiences come into my reality… how else
would I know the difference between, joy and pain? These moments in
time are a must…
My growth is immense, the deepest of understanding… Where does
my heart long to be? Standing firm on my foundation of LOVE…
The ‘Paper’
is complete, its been sent… OH MY GAWD, two years, two months…
now its in the mail… time to chill, time to allow the universe
to dance with the rhythm that will allow this evolution to expand…
and it will beyond anything I’ve ever experienced…
THANK
YOU, A THOUSAND TIMES FOR ALL OF YOUR SUPPORT, PRAYERS, AND ENCOURAGMENT…
This is a collective journey, we couldn’t have done this with
out you…
As soon
as a response comes back to me, {the Paper} believe me, there will
be fire works around the universe, shouts from the highest mountain
tops…
This
evolution of consciousness has propelled us to this juncture…
a magical ride to say the least…
My body
vibrates with excitement… keep your prayers comin in…
Blessings to all…
3rd February
For the
past month or so I’ve been experiencing an energy field that
creates a shock wave when ever I touch metal… yesterday, while
writing on my computer, my mouse wouldn’t move the curser…
telling Ian there was something amiss, he come over, took the mouse
in his hand, right before my eyes, the curser moved, then I took it,
no movement at all… we went back and forth at least four times,
for him it would move, for me, no movement… in that moment it
didn’t make sense…
Later in the day, we had gone to the movies, {Million Dollar Baby}
anyway, closing the door on the van, again, this shock ran through
my body, asking Ian if he’s getting shocked, he said no…
it came to him that the energy that I’m experiencing is why
my mouse wouldn’t work… when he said this, it was quite
clear that this energy that I’m experiencing is the cause…
I’ve been feeling it for some time… it makes perfect sense…
This
patient thing is not my strong suit… I’m all about action,
being in motion… I know when we get funded, there will be an
abundance of projects, yet waiting for this, well, I’m repeating
myself, it is challenging…
Testing, constantly testing…
While sitting in this holding pattern, my anxiety is recognized, I
have to do something… washing the floor… doing laundry,
taking three walks a day, anything that will take me out of my mind…
Julia
Rogers Hamrick’s book ‘Recreating Eden’… apprise
yourselves by reading this… her description’s, her clarity
is grounding… contact Julia at
www.recreating-eden.com
30th Jan. ‘05
Last
Thursday, the 27th, driving to Phoenix… My giddiness was almost
outa control, the government building is a few years old, Huge gothic
glass structure, there aren’t any windows from the interior
offices, it’s as cold as any building I’ve ever been in…
This I imagine as a prison, going through a metal detector, checking
my bag, making sure that I am who I say I am… what a trip…
No welcome mate, no plants, no one would think about looking at me
as I walked down the hall, and if they did, they would look away quickly,
they would melt, like the wicked witch in OZ…
We, Gary,
Patricia, Ian and Me, went there to finish up the Last of the Paper,
we’ve known that there would be a completion at some point,
not knowing when, or how… we just knew that we needed to put
one foot in front of the other, hold our intention and attention in
the for-front with integrity… and make it happen…
When
this paper gets into the proper hands, we will receive our reward…
This
is for the world, not just for US… not by a long shot…
Do you
have a project that will enhance the world, something as big as free
energy… we’re going to be looking for projects to fund…
let me know…
The Garden
of Eden is waiting for us… we’ve been waiting to return
to our garden… How do you see yourself in this New World? Tell
me, I really want to know…
Ayn Rand
wrote about how the world would look, when the power elite moved out
of Power, into Integrity… read Atlas Shrugged… it’s
a great read…
This
is our time, Living our true passion is all the creator ever wanted
for all the Children, so, come play… know you’ve been
formally invited…
On the
26th Jan, Ian’s Birthday, I asked him what he wanted to do?
“Mexican Food, that sounds good, that’s what I want.”
Jonne,
and C.Joy, joined us. We had a 15 minute wait for a table…
At the
front of the restaurant there are many gifts that one could buy…
there was a wooded tree filled with hand puppets, so, of course I
had to play with them, I chose a bunny, walked over to Ian, and sang
happy birthday, then Ian took one, we were playing, having a good
time, putting the bunny over my other arm, making it look real, I
walked over to the girls, making funny sounds, they giggled…
Three
women walked in, bunny and I greeted them, they were cordial, yet
not allowing themselves to fully engage with me, oh well…
Returning
the bunny for something else, approaching the tree, a boy of, oh,
maybe ten stood looking at all the different choices there were…
“Which one do you want to play with?” he shrugged his
shoulders… “Would you like for me to choose one for you?”
While shaking his head negative, he walked away… I felt a sadness
come over me, the sadness was that this little boy, wouldn’t
allowing himself to play… What happened?... What was he told?...
Wow,
I told Jonne and C.Joy… They were sad also, Jonne said, “maybe
he was told NOT to talk to strangers….” “Ok, I can
get that, it’s still sad.” “Yes, it’s still
sad.”
I still
had the bunny, {my dad had gotten a bunny puppet for me when I was
around 7, so, I was right there, being 7…
Remember
the three women? I invited them to play, to take one, choose one,
they said, thanks, “NO.”… “If you take one
to the bar, the bartender will give you a free drink.”…
“NO.”… when they walked away… looking at Jonne,
is said “I lied.” About the drink thing… I knew
they wouldn’t do it… whats up with people… now is
the time for your child to come play… that’s another reason
why so many people are feeling such discomfort in their body, it’s
the child… the child has gone through its incubation period,
and s/he is working overtime to get the hell out, and the mind is
saying;
N O
T Y E T!
Now,…
you… can… make… it… hard… on…
yourself… OR… your can have a easy delivery… where
are you looking at this moment, when I ask about looking, I’m
talking about the internal thought… your mind….
Are you
facing the reality of ‘your’ life? This is Your reality,
whatever you choose… reading newspapers, watching the news,
witnessing the lie’s that are being perpetrated up US…
Lets
go off to the shore, see who will come with you, … this is our
time, our time to celebrate, having a huge celebration, if not now…
WHEN?
Our wagon
train is on the move, more and more are wanting to join, they’re
eager, knowing from the childs voice saying, “that’s what
I want to do… I want to go play, be silly, enjoy, don’t
pay attention to what ‘They’ say… did you care when
you were 6 or 5… come on, what does the bible say? Don’t
ask me I’m Jewish… Not like, I’M JEWISH… do
you know what I mean? Good… I'm human... being Jewish came with
the teritory...
31st
JAN. ‘05
“Thomas
Fuller said,
‘He
that wont sail until all dangers are over must never put to sea.’
“
Are you
a dreamer? … Waiting for the ‘perfect’ moment? …
How long have you been telling yourself that ‘one day’…
‘some day’ … ‘when I have the time’
“Arthur
C. Clarke’s Third Law”
“Any
sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic.”
Magic
happens when you step outside your comfort zone… I’m speaking
from experience… these past two plus years, almost everything
I’ve done is outside my box of comfort… some years ago
I was gifted a hand gliding session… standing on the cliff,
waiting for ‘the moment’ when the wind was blowing perfectly,
I had enough time to change my mind… I knew I was going, I knew
this was about my LIFE… when he said, “lift your feet,”
the future that I’m experiencing now would never have been…
I know that… by the way, it was a great ride, we we’re
soaring for about 40 minutes… wow… what a rush…
Seeing
in another the courage that wasn’t available in the self.
Truth
can be terrifying . . .
It’s
like everything you’ve grown up to believing was a lie . . .
When
people become confident enough maybe lazy enough to stop asking whether
there’s another way to see the universe. Evolution makes perfect
sense… Most people convinced themselves to stop looking for
explanations…
In this
evolution, what had been lost is common sense . . .
Over
time, things always proceed from order to disorder . . .
The Shinning
One’s
1st February
‘05
Book;
LINK by Walt Becker
Where
did the evolution of modern man come to the knowledge that we possess
today? The complexity about our understanding stemming from ancient
scriptures, science, yet where, from whom? Are we wise enough, does
our ego pretend that we have the answers to questions that lie somewhere
in the recesses of our memory?
I say,
we’ve never been alone… There’s an intelligence
far more advanced then ‘ Earthlings.’
Earth
has been a training port, being viewed by other beings from the beginning
of time, billions of years ago…
We’re
not the superior ones, never have been, could we reproduce Pyramids?
Do we have the technology to move tons of rock to recreate them? The
scientists have acknowledged they can not…
At the
age of 6 or 5, I would climb up into my favorite tree, getting all
cozy, I knew there was another ‘me’ on another planet,
we would have conversations, promising one another that some day we
would meet in the flesh… well, we’re very excited, knowing
that we’ve been patiently waiting…
We’re
ready to meet in ‘Real Time’…
Our time
is drawing closer, we know this, we know on a deep soul level…
As soon as this ‘quarantine’ in lifted… I wait,
I’ve been waiting for over 50 years.
My challenge
is being patient…
Bertrand
Russell said… ‘Stress’ “One of the symptoms
of an approaching nervous breakdown is the belief that ones’
work is terribly important.”
When
my brother died at the age of 38, having a massive heart attach, it
was clear to me that life, my life continued… Yes, there was
heart ach, fear, anger, I cursed god, renouncing my belief in a higher
source…
For the
next three years I remained steed fast, holding my anger in check…
“If
there is a god, why would you take my brother?”
He was
loved, admired, 100’s of people attended his funeral…
My parents
never recovered, yes, they lived their lives, yet loosing the first
born, their only son… I can’t, won’t try to imagine…
His departure
was tragic, yet the gift that I know now is, no-thing I do is taken
for granted. Every breath, this journey that I’m creating, living
on the edge, I know I’m doing my life for US… he’s
with me always…
No one
promised us a rose garden… We can, with desire and tenacity
create the most magnificent garden that ever was… Plant, feed,
water, prune, nurture… You have the know how, do you have the
desire?
If you’re
not living on the edge, you’re taking up to much space…
What
are you waiting for?’
How ‘Right’
do you want to be? Staying in a hypnotic state wont allow you to move
out of this paradigm you’ve called ‘You’re reality’…
this started from your first breath…
The door
to the box you’ve been in is right in front of you, you have
the key, USE IT… It’s beautiful out here, more magnificent
then you can imagine…
That
little boy who was afraid to play with me at the restaurant, the hand
puppets he so wanted to play with, yet wouldn’t allow himself
to? How will these ramifications impact this child’s life? Do
you allow yourself the freedom to explore beyond your four walls?
The Garden of Eden is waiting for you, you’ve received an engraved
invitation… you don’t need to RSVP, just show up…
Show up in your new suit, you’ve designed it, you’re the
creator, don’t stop now… Here, take the ‘Blue Pill’…
Don’t turn back, keep focus on your desire… turn your
dreams into the reality you deserve…
You’ve
been following my dream, my reality, I’m inviting you to come
play, release your inner child, he’s screaming to be release,
don’t hold back, this is your time, your adventure, I’m
rooting for you, {just like you had been rooting for me} the entire
team is rooting you on, you can do this, one baby step at a time,
keep breathing, head up high, Father Sun is warming you, directing
your path, follow it, listen, do you hear that? Your child is crying
tears of joy, he’s been patient, keeping you stable, waiting
for this moment to be set free… Your freedom will come when
you step off the presuppose into the unknown… This is you leap
of faith… 1, … 2, … deep breath, 3…
W E L
C O M E
It takes
chutzpah to step into the unknown…
2nd February
Last
night while lying in bed, the memory’s of those months when
‘Drama’ was my mode of life… The event that came
to mind was that day in the park, Reece’s birthday, when Spirit
had the run’s… I lost it the likes of which I hadn’t
experienced since my marriage, that was over more then 20 years ago…
That day at the park, that day I hit bottom… not only did I
hit the bottom of the barrel, my entire body felt like there were
wood splinters up one side and down the other…
Amazing
how these experiences are mandatory for my growth, understanding about
what I’m choosing… in that clarity, and choosing what’s
set in front of me, that’s when I can move on to the next ‘test’…
With
out diversity, how could I compare one experience from another? All
that is being presented to me is for my growth, the deepest of understanding…
Where does my heart long to be? Standing firm on my foundations of…
LOVE…
The ‘Paper’
is complete, its going into the mail this morning… Oh My god,
two years, four months…
Thank
you a thousand times for all of your prayers, for all of your support,
our collective energy, our collective prayers has allowed us to move
with grace and ease through these times… We couldn’t have
done this with out you…
As soon
as a response comes back, believe me, there will be fire works around
the universe, shouts from the highest mountain tops will be heard…
This
evolution of consciousness has propelled us to this juncture…
A magical ride to say the least…
My body
vibrates with excitement…
4th February
Last
night Gary, Ian and I sat in the hot tub, the air temperature was
in the high 30’s… lying back so I was emerged up to my
chin, looking up into the clear sky, the stars were sparkling, holding
their majestic sparkling beings, they were there for me to admire
and cherish…
Finding
myself moving from space to another space in the tub… I’ve
been feeling this accelerated energy, where sitting still has become
another one of my challenges…
Prior
to going to the hot tub, Ian and I went to the market, looking for
something to make for our dinner… approaching the meat counter,
“How about a stake?” Ian walked on with out responding
to my question, he stopped in front of the fish counter, being I’ve
been a vegetarian for over 20 years… he walked back to where
I was standing. “How about a stake?” “I thought
you were kidding.” “Well, my body is craving meat, so
that’s what I’m going to feed me.”
Stake,
wow, it tasted great, felt great, there was an aliveness that showed
up I hadn’t noticed was ever missing… ok…
Back
to the hot tub, it was close to nine when we met Gary… Talking
about being divinely guided through this process… {Gary is the
one who had been working on ‘these papers’ before we met,
he’s was/is part of our ‘clan’}
I’ve
been standing facing the sun, {when ever the sun has come out} needing
the Vit, D… it’s healing for me… all the patterns
that had once been so ‘stable’ in my life, I count on
these days… what I count on is ‘change’, ever more
change… do you know that by using ‘sun block’ you’re
depleting over 46% of vit. D in your body? They’re systematically
killing us, pretending to enhance our lives… NOT TRUE…
more lies... How long before this ‘hypnotic state you’ve
been accustomed to will wear off? WAKE UP… Follow your intuition…
For years soy had been a staple for me, it had been promoted as ‘Good’
for us… that the Asian’s have been thriving on it for
hundreds of years… then I read more about the sprays, chemicals
that are being used on soy, now I don’t eat it at all…
{there’s an article posted on mayanmajix about this} more brain
washing… When a lie is told enough times, one starts to believe
this lie as fact… Look what Bush is doing/saying, our entire
economy is collapsing, yet, his words are penetrating into {some people
out there} the consciousness of around 70% of the population. Go Bush
Baby…
Keep
your head above the water, see who’s in there with you…
5th February
We’ve
been in Sedona for a month, tomorrow is the last day for us to live
in this condo… At this moment, I don’t know where we’re
going to live/stay… with out funds it becomes a ‘crap
shoot’… I’m used to this, knowing that whenever
something is needed, it shows up…
There
are those human experiences that creep in, then the feeling of anxiety
shows its head, feeling pressure across my back, when I breath directly
into the area, it subsides greatly… it’s the remembering
to breath…sometimes its tricky… the remembering part…
We have
a talk scheduled for Wednesday night… our thoughts are to go
back to L.A., stay with son Ray…
Returning
from my walk, it dawned on me to ask Suzann {she’s the women
who owns this condo} if we could stay here for three more nights,
being the new people weren’t coming until the 9th.} her response
was. “We’re here as light workers to assist one another,
so for those three nights, give me $50. you’re doing incredible
work, this message must get out.} I cried, tears of appreciation…
11th
February
Brownie
Points;
You’ve
heard ‘this’ expression, haven’t you?
Here’s
my interpretation…
“One
who pleases another without being asked.”
Last
night Ian, Spirit and I rolled into L.A. … Ray was at Jodi’s
with the children, {ya know that when ‘some’ call their
children KIDS, we’re referring to them as Billy goats…
stop it!} when something comes through, it wants to be heard…
So be it… Reece gave me the biggest hug, he’s such a love…
Reece
and I had a few minutes alone, we took Spirit and Lucky for a walk…
Before
we left he mentioned that he was going to take a shower… when
we walked back into the house, he sat down to watch what ever was
on the T.V.
Ray got
upset and voices his upset toward Reece, “Get in the shower!”
his tone wasn’t pleasant…
Some
years ago, Ray was looking glum. I asked him, “What would you
like/need to hear from me that will make a difference in your life
at this moment?”
“I
need to be acknowledged for who I am.”
This
is easy for me...“Ray, I admire, first your heart, your open
and honest, count~on~able, you’re someone I would trust with
MY LIFE.”
He smiled,
“Thank you.” We hugged, I asked if there was anything
else? “No, that’s it.”
How did
Spirit and I train one another? By giving the other what was needed…
Love, acknowledgment, hugs, all in all lots of kudo’s for bringing
pleasure into our lives… and most of all consistence with it
all…
So, would
these actions work with children? You bet your pippie they will…
This
is the NEW scenario; Reece walks into the house, straight into the
shower… Ray gives him a huge hug, telling him how proud he is
that he’s taking such great care of his own needs… telling
him how happy he is that his son does so well…
Now,
wouldn’t you want to continue doing whatever it would be to
get hugs? Of course …
Spirit
is a great dog, he gets acknowledgments all the time, he’s told
what a great guy he is, that he’s a good listener… the
more acknowledgment he gets, the more he wants to please… it’s
no different with the children… for cryin out loud… you
can see that can’t you?
If I
had this knowledge when my children were growing up, Ray wouldn’t
have had the build up that occurred for him… I’m grateful
for our communication, our desire to continue to grow, explore clearer
ways to listen, and speak so the power comes for our heart…
Happy
days… Mixed with frantic moments…
I forgot
to tell you that when we were driving to L.A. we stopped at a rest
stop, Spirit and I were walking around in one direction, Ian had gone
to the ‘mens’ room… I didn’t see him come
out, a few minutes later, looking around for him, he was walking amongst
the wild flowers… when we approached, he had picked a huge bouquet
of flowers, handing them to me, I melted… giving him a hug…
“This is the most romantic expression you’ve given to
me today.” We giggled while hugging, feeling a deep love…
really sweet feelings, deep emotion… we’re entering our
forth year… a long time for me…
In using
Ian as my mirror, my personal growth is huge, how do I know this?
By observing Ian’s growth…
He is
the most fascinating man I’ve ever met… he truly keeps
me entertained… he blows me away by the knowledge he holds,
the down side is when I watch him be hard on himself, when those times
show up where he believes he should know more, that he doesn’t
know it all makes him upset at himself… it’s hard to hear
this, knowing what he knows, his ability to recall situations and
events… well, you’ve seen his presentation, he doesn’t
have notes… he can speak for four hours, the history that he
recalls, and speaks about with authority… my god…
We’ve
acknowledged to one another that what we’ve accomplished through
our collective energy wouldn’t have happened with anyone else…
I/We
are having the most fun… I wouldn’t trade my life for
anyone, or anything…
21st
February
not much
to report on these days… seems to me that when everything in
my life is rolling around effortlessly, filled with joy and contentment,
everything is in total harmony… yeah…
At the
talk last night, 20 people were there… the consciousness shift
that occurs in that space is magnificent… the entire room vibrates
on a higher plateau… it was after midnight by the time we left,
feeling energized and excited by having more people come to this place
where they allow their ‘intuition’ be their guide…
really beautiful to witness…
It was
about 1:30 a.m. when I got into bed, these are the thoughts that came…
“All the tests/hoops I’ve been experiencing/put through,
these steps and stages, bringing my awareness to THIS center position.”
Then
the image of ‘pealing the onion’ showed itself, the onion
was the size of a basketball, each ‘leaf’ was as thin
as tissue paper, the instructions were to peal the onion one ‘petal’
at a time making sure they came off whole… well, I’ve
done that, I’ve followed each and every one of these instructions,
62 years later, I’ve gotten to the core… I’ve completed
this task, and have been rewarded all along this journey… {even
though there were times I wasn’t in agreement with my guides,
they continued to support me, never once deserting me… there’s
that 20/20 hind sight} So, now that ‘The Core’ is exposed,,
and I’d say that 95% of all my loose ends are out in the open,
examined, ingested, regurgitated, what I’m left with is this
NEW freedom…
In the
past my views about other people in my life made an impression so
deep that finding a clearing didn’t occur in those instances…
I knew in my mind that I was creating disharmony from the depths of
my soul… yet, I hadn’t found a way out of the trenches…
Now that
this NEW LIGHT is shinning, knowing its not a train heading straight
at me, those once fears have evaporated…
Keeping
‘ALL’ my attention/intention on ME/MYSELF… my thoughts
on ‘ownership/monogamy are antiquated… {please understand,
these are MY thoughts, not everyone’s, or universal truths}
We just
received news that OUR ‘Paper’ is perfect… Ian said,
“Do we know how to follow instructions, or what?” Oh My
Gawd This Is Huge…
There’s
a heat running through my body as if I were sitting directly under
a blazing sun… strange in a way, there’s a storm raging
outside… days of storm, hail, lightning thunder… “Go
L.A. Go.”
So, back
to ownership… thoughts; freeing myself from the old ancient,
thoughts about being left behind, not included… what had kept
me in the antiquated belief was my mind… ‘IT’ wants
to keep me prisoner, to keep me hypnotized, mesmerized…
That
… Is … The … 3rd Dimension …
THE MATRIX
Realizing
some time ago that when ever I interacted outside ‘my home’
{the safety nest where I had a roof over my head} especially in Los
Angeles, watching the Matrix in action while I sat in the 5th Dimension,
there was such discomfort, the only thing I wanted to do was get back
to my nest…
The Fibernotchy
{no sure how this is spelled} sequence came to mind… going from
3 D… to 5 D… then to 8… then it made more sense…
Back
in November when I was in L.A. Michael {a new friend} contacted me,
we continued to stay in touch… then a few months later, we met
in real time… he came over to where we are, in one of the conversations
about mayanmajix web site, I asked him if he read my journey…
he said yes… he’s read every word… “I have
a question for you, do you see a difference in my writing from the
beginning until now.” He was thinking about it for a few moments…
“Yes, what I’ve noticed is, you’re not complaining
any longer.”
So happy
to hear that… being all is well, going in the direction that
serves not only me, it serves my family… this makes me very
happy…
Remember
“Recreating Eden.” Julia Rogers Hamrick’s book…
Returning
to Eden has been a life long dream… The obstacle in my path
was my mind… it continued to deceive me… reading Julia’s
book, LOOKING newly from this altered perspective, the one from my
intuition/soul… The piece that had been missing is now filled…
once I knew there was a crack, then it was totally up to me in filling
said crack… Julia’s Recreating Eden is the mortar, solid,
truly a no brainier… it’s just there…
Contact
Julia…. Please…
www.recreating-eden.com
you’ve
had multitudes of dialog with yourself and others that you want your
life to be ‘different’… well, here’s an answer…
Recreating Eden…
I’ve
noticed that some ‘friends’ have removed themselves from
my life… I’m not surprised at all, when ones mind takes
over, your intuition/soul is lost, just in those moments… not
forever… when you recognize that you’re allowing it to
take you away from the Love, being Love IS the foundation for all,
whether animate or inanimate, Love was our first breath when emerging
from momma’s womb… then each breath that followed…
From
the time the decision was made in taking up a ‘human’
body, once again, we were TOTALLY conscious of this love, once emerging
from the womb, amnesia sets in… now, we’re much more cognizant,
we’re remembering… those whom have stepped into 5 D might
be feeling anxious, tired, lose or gain of apatite, you’ve heard
all of this before…
Carl
Callemen wrote; it should be posted on mayanmajix mayanmajix
The End
of Dominance
23rd
Feb…
The End
of Dominance, this got me thinking about situations that I hadn’t
thought about, ever… or maybe in different terms…
There
were times in the past when I would falter when interacting with others…
in listening to what was being said, feeling what they were saying
didn’t match up with my belief, wanting them to see my point
of view, not recognizing that it was really ok for them to have their
own point of view…
We would
come to some kind of agreement, to agree to disagree… then we
could go on to something else…
This
is what I see; were our consciousness has come to is being exclusive…
The
Garden of Eden's, consciousness lies is inclusively
In viewing
the ancient tribes, how did the village survive/thrive?
Everyone
was included, the men were the hunter/gatherers, women, children stayed
in the village, preparing the entire day… teaching one another,
passing stories from the ancient ones… what happened?
Little
by little, more and more fear was instilled into our consciousness,
subliminal suggestions… wild huh?
When
I was 12/13, my dad bought our first home… it was great, Spanish
style… anyway, years later I drove by, I sat in my car and wept…
every window, all the doors had bars on them… what happened?
Large
cities have become the ‘concrete jungle’… and this
is called ‘progress’?…
How often
do ‘city dwellers’ stop to look up at the stars? Watch
a sun set?
Take
a stroll through the park? Or a walk around the block? What’s
happed to us? Take a long week-end, camp beside a river, breath fresh
air, fantasizing about that day in the future where you can live freely,
being with the land, have the freedom to wake when you want, sleep
when you want, not by the ALARM clock… why do you think it’s
called ALARM clock… it’s alarming… mind shattering…
Don’t
wait, now is the time… include Mother Earth into everything
you do, teach the children survival… teach yourselves…
I’ve spoken to many adults that say they would be lost if they
couldn’t go to the market for food…
What
will happen when the markets, delivery of food stops… what will
happen? This is no joke… we’re on a schedule… it’s
been written… I’m watching it, Ian and I have been speaking
about this for a couple of years now… know where you water is,
know where your food is, know where your family is… is your
mind stopping you? That’s what I keep hearing…
While
Ian and I sat comfortably at home in Sedona, talking about taking
this message on the road, the feeling of actually making that move
hadn’t come to fruition until that day in May when ‘The
Guns’ showed up, and showed us the door… it took only
ten minutes to recognize that all of our talk for the past two years
was now in action… camping for the first 11 days… we created
a plan…
I loved
my home, it was an award winning project. When I moved into her in
’99, I announced, “this is a five year project.”
Now, isn’t that interesting? From 1999, to 2004… I spoke
my future… didn’t know how it would turn out, yet, here
I am, looking at how magical ‘they’ are…
This
support has always been there, even in those times when I wasn’t
cognizant of them, not until sometime down the road… there were
times that years would pass before there was recognition of a pattern…
I created it ALL…
The year
2000, along the highway in AZ, this beautiful property sat empty…
I found the owner, wrote to ask if she wanted her land cleared, I
would do this with no expense to her, what I asked in return was that
I keep what ever was on the land… three months passed, no word…
I stopped thinking about it… then she called asking if I were
still interested…so, while working on this project that I manifested,
taking down, board by board a house, barn, shed, and water tower that
was built some 120 years ago…
I’ll
shorten the story… four months later, the job is a couple of
days to completion… my partner Casey and I were loading up,
my '69 Chevy pick up, and a '64 GMC pick up I borrowed from a friend…
I was driving the GMC… the road we were on was a two lane, from
Cottenwood, to Sedona, about a mile from the site, my truck started
to fish tale, I couldn’t straighten her out… facing the
on coming traffic, seeing a little red sports car heading straight
towards me, I said, “Ok God.” Then she moved back into
my lane, yet, I still hadn’t got her under control… now
she was headed for the ditch…
“Ok,
God, what ever you want.” The voice said, “In or Out?”
“In.” at that moment, everything slowed down, everything,
the truck had a bench seat. I tucked my body onto the seat, balling
myself as tight as can be, she did a 360 once she hit the ditch…
My spine
hit the roof of the truck, she came to a stop, hearing Casey scream
my name, yet I couldn’t move… when he opened the door,
not knowing if I were alive, the only thing I could do was move my
finger… he asked if I could get out… finding my voice,
“no, not yet.” Backing out, I heard many voices, someone
said, “I have a blanket in the car.” It was a scorching
summer day, in the desert… there must have been eight or more
voices, four others help a blanket over me so the sun wouldn’t
beat down on me…
While
I was recovering, the voice said, “You’ve asked me to
be gentle, yet when I am you don’t listen, now, you’re
listening.” The voice went on to say… “we know,
you can do everything better, faster, more efficient then anyone,
with grace and ease. Now it’s time for you to ‘ask’
for help.” OK, OK, I’ve got it…
Daughter
Jo-e had come to visit, and left 7 days earlier… when I called
to tell her what had happened, she asked if I wanted her to come back
so she could take care of me… test #1… “Yes.”
People
were knocking at my door, some I had known, others I hadn’t
ever met, they said, they had heard what had happened, and were told
by ‘spirit’ that they were to come and work on me…
test #2… allowing this…
The following
three weeks became a revolving door, talk about a quantum leap into
an altered dimension…
It’s
gotten less stressful to ask for help, I still take a deep breath
before I can ask… what’s up with that?
So,
what I’m seeing is “This is the end of Dominance…”
Light
workers know that the road well traveled, is the road to Eden…
I N
C L U S I V E….
EVERYTHNG
you’ve ever dreamt of will become a reality… you can see
this right now, you ask for something, or think about someone, boom,
it’s there…
I’ve
been watching this ‘magic’ in my life for years, the more
I pay attention to EVERYTHING, I mean EVERYTHING, the quicker these
manifestations occur… this entire journey since we left Quail
Hollow, well, you’ve been with me, you’re first hand observers…
aren’t you???
24th
Feb.
The full
moon was last night, eight Goddess gathered in ceremony… daughter
Jo-e, daughter~in~love Jodi were part of this group…
For three
hours the sharing of love, grounding the energy with soul sisters,
feeling more alive than I’ve felt in a while…
A giant
portal opened, when ir did, what occurred was, the umbilical cord
was cut… from Ian, and my children… I felt as though I
had gotten stripped of weights that I hadn’t been aware of that
bond me to some other dimension…
It’s
a beautiful thing, I’m grateful… truly… what I honor
most about my relationship with Ian is our honesty, we’ve never
deceived one another, not ever…
Do you
remember putting something away for safe keeping, thinking you would
remember where you ‘hid’ it from yourself, then when you
give up looking, it comes back to you?
What
I hid from myself was my playfulness, at the Goddess gathering, I
found it… YEAH…
There’s
an amazing turn of events that continue to throw curve balls at me….
The difference
between the ‘balls’ from the past and present time is,
today the balls are made up of angel wings… soft, cozy, engulfing
my entire being with golden light… sometimes a violet flame…
Happy…
February
‘05
A stitch
in time saves nine.”
Have you ever given thought to the meaning of this?
“Mare’s eat oats, doe’s eat oats, little lambs eat
ivy, a kideleat ivy too wouldn’t you?”
I don’t even know why these came to mind at this time, maybe
I’m searching for something outside that will bring some peace
of mind, right now, this sitting around waiting for an answer from
the international bankers to respond to my paper is driving me to
find some soles, something from my past that I could recognize…
I really don’t know…
Don’t throw the baby out with the bath water… I know where
this came from, yet how applicable is this in our today’s language?
Don’t
look a gift horse in the mouth…
So much of what ‘we say’ comes from repetition…
A lie spoken long enough becomes a truth… what ever you speak,
most likely will become a reality…
Here’s a story…
This is when I was living on Quail Hollow… It’s a 3 miles
drive to the main road, its forestland, wild life, bunnies, coyote’s,
hawks, bobcats… Driving into town, a bunny ran in front of my
car, I said, “Don’t’ run in front of me when I’m
driving down this road… Three days in a row, a bunny would run
in front of me… after the third time, hearing the words I was
using, I started laughing… changing the words to, when I drive
this road, I want all the critters to stay on the side of the road.”…
Returning home, sharing this story with Ian, then later on driving
into town with him, there sat a bunny, right on the side of the road,
he didn’t move, being I had told Ian before hand about this
situation, he looked at me saying, “Well, there he is, doing
what you asked.”
A friend,
I won’t use a name being I hadn’t asked permission…
this friend is working on ‘paper’ with us… we were
driving home from a week-end course… What s/he said, was…
“I don’t want to go to jail.” Two or three times
this statement was repeated… yes" I suggested that by speaking
what is wanted, rather then what isn’t wanted, what will be
presented, will be just that…
The new statement is… “I am safe, protected, and guided.
So it is.” This has become my hobby, LISTENING… in guiding
someone through a situation the very first subject is to retrain one’s
listening, slowing your speaking down, giving yourself time to HEAR,
what you’re truly saying, what you truly want…
Something
that pushes my buttons is, when I ask a question, simple yes or no
answer will do, yet what I get is a reason, or excuse… asking,
for example, “would you like to have lunch with me?” simple
yes or no… we’ve been so programmed to make up ‘reasons’
for our actions… what a stressful state of affairs we've gotten
ourselves into… Cabin fever is setting in…<
Asking
Ian if he wanted to take a ride with me…Pacific Coast Hwy….
North, driving with the windows down, feeling/smelling the sea air…
Malibu is an upscale place to live… we stopped in Malibu for
lunch, there are shops, any kind of food you would/could want to eat…
and a precious park, small park… Spirit got to play with other
four-legged ones, then we drove a little farther toward Zuma Beach,
finding a place to park, and Spirit loves waking on the sand…
It was
a lovely day after all… thank you for that… feeling my
body/soul once again…
Growing
up in LA spending as much time at the ocean as possible, being there
is my comfort…
When my brother left his body, made his transition, as though he were
calling me to meet him at the ocean, he even told me what time to
be there, always late at night, 10 or 11 p.m.… P.C.H. is quiet
that time of night, staying in my car, windows down, I asked him for
guidance, {this was the beginning of my 31st year} feeling lost, when
he was in his body, just 'knowing' my big brother was here to talk
to about anything was comforting… So talk about a shift in conscious
reality… oh my gawd…
While
I was writing, 'they' told me to lie down'… OK.. "Your
brother was your shield, constant comfort"… I said, OK,
Good"… they went on to say… "Ian is this for
you now!" This surprised me… yet, they've never been wrong…
Sharing
this with Ian, feeling brotherly love for him, he acknowledged the
same, we've experienced this relationship like no other… What
remained steadfast was our commitment with getting 'This Message'
out to the world…
Our friendship is eternal…
Welcome
to this Grand Journey, we are creating our own reality… Every
Step of the Way…
28th
Feb… '05
Amazing,
another month complete… Ian will be leaving on Wednesday, exactly
three months from the time he arrived to the states….
"Whom
has the Gold, makes the rules."
Cole
and I are watching the movie, "Aladdin." That statement
made by the 'wicked one' AKA, the government…
