Matty's Journal
August 2008


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My Lightbody Process

"The world is not to be put in order; the world is order, incarnate. It is for us to harmonize
with this order."

-- Henry Miller

It would be an unsound fancy and self-contradictory to expect that things which have never yet been done can be done except by means which have never yet been tried.

Francis Bacon


There is a fifth dimension beyond that which is known to man. It is a dimension as vast as space and as timeless as infinity. It is the middle ground between light and shadow, between science and superstition, and it lies between the pit of man’s fears and the summit of his knowledge. This is the dimension of imagination. It is an area which we call the Twilight Zone.

Rod Serling




Walking into the Enchanted Forest, standing still as I’m gazing into the magnificence of it all, Grandfather Sun beaming his light through the trees, creating shade for the underbrush.  Spirit is walking ahead of me, there are days when he follows my lead, and others when I follow his.  Today he’s leading.  Turning right onto another path, I’m humming as I do, or singing to the Tree People,  listening to the songs being sung to me from the ‘winged ones’,  feeling the coolness of the early morning air.


My beloved Tree, cracked from the heaviness of the upper branches. She is one of the most magnificent trees I’ve ever seen.  ( This is where Ian’s ashes are)


Speaking to Her, pulling a few dead small branches off, telling Her how much I love Her, knowing She’s sharing my joy of ‘being’ in the presence of the One.


We walk on.  The baby bunnies are getting bigger, they scurry past us, Spirit’s given up chasing them, he’s never caught one.  And now that he’s older and wiser about his abilities, he watches them pass by.


There are areas where the path is over grown, the stocks of purple flowers are almost as tall as I. There’s an area of trees that are quite dense. Behind a tall bush stood a doe. She was no more than 20 feet away from us. Holding Spirits collar, I’m talking with her, she steps forward, watching her ears move as she’s listening to my voice. My body is vibrating from this energy exchange.  She stood there for about 30 seconds or so, then her companion came out from behind a bush.  With that they vanished into the thicket of trees.


I couldn’t move, my body held me there while tears rolled down my cheeks.

A Blue Heron flew over head, so close I could feel the draft from its’ wings.


Spirit looked at me, he was moving on, I followed.  Turning onto another path,  Spirit looked back, I said, “which way, you lead.”  He turned towards the creek,  we hadn’t gone this way for some time, being the path has disappeared from the growth.  Walking down the embankment, following Spirit, my face got covered with the spider web I walked into, by the time I took the web off, Spirit wasn’t seen.  Saying to him, “Where are you?”  he touched a bush, making it move so I could follow.  He waited for me.  The growth here is taller then I.  passing through this area, coming to a clearer area, a huge hawk feather was resting on a bush.  “Spirit, you are one magical dog.” 


Near the fish hatchery wild berry bushes are ready for pickin,  stopping to eat a few, knowing I will be back with my basket.


The bull frogs are the funniest, the sounds they make, what a hoot. Ducks with their babies summing around, enjoy the morning sun. plenty to eat here, that’s for sure.


This wonderful experience happened before 7 a.m.   what a way to start my day.  How blessed I am, everything is a gift from Source, everything.

Most of us are blessed beyond our wildest dreams, while others have their challenges beyond theirs.  The letter that follows is one that is felt deep in my heart.  Sending Devin prayers, and tons of healing energy.  When you read this, you will understand what is being asked here. 


We’ve chosen our path, some wonder why they would choose one that had such struggle attached to it.  Yet, to ask why isn’t part of what there is for Devin at this time.


Thank you for all the prayers.



Aloha Madaline,
As you know, I have been working with these rainbow children for some years now.  Devin, 18 yrs old, has had a severe illness for the last 9 years.    
Both Devin and his brother Eaman, 10 yrs. old have a mission as rainbow children to assist the planet.  
Kris needs about $25,000.00 to pay the back taxes on her house and get the mortgage current.  We had thought that Eamen could come here and stay with me for awhile but we're sort of in a holding pattern as the stress in the household precludes any movement at the moment.

Below in red, is a current update of the status and situation that Kris, Eamen and Devin face at this moment, July 23, 2008, as stated by Kris in an email to another light worker who is also trying to assist her and the boys:

" ...   Also, Devin is doing so poorly that he has only been keeping the Ensure down for short periods, and has continued to lose weight.    I keep trying to believe we can pull off moving or something, but the truth of it is if Devin doesn't improve significantly.......It just can't happen.  His head and chest pains are so excruciating that any  movement in the house makes them even worse.  I can't leave him for most of the time he is awake and then can't make much noise so I have no clue.  And poor Eamen, he's only 10, all of this with Devin, losing the house, watching his dad deteriorate and now trying to decide about going to Hawaii for a while, as Keliana has offered to care for him.........he's only ten and never been away from me......UUGH.  I can't make the mortgage payment due this week so we'll be right back in foreclose.........when they come to "kick" us out.......God knows.   I can only pray and trust something will break by then.  The stress is really taking its toll on Devin.  I pray, envisioning and believing that we will move beyond this constant threat enough to get Devin improving.  Just breathing through all this and trusting!   hugs~  Kris "

Kris and the boys have a website now, , where you can read a little about this family's journey. 


This info from David Icke is most important at this time. Please,Please, take the time to watch it, I know how grateful I was onceI heard all that he had to say.  Blessings all. Giant blessings.


On this note, Ralph Nadar claims in a video interview ( that a senior congressman who is a PhD from M.I.T. stated that if the Democrats bring Impeachment proceedings that "our administration" would attach Iran and send "us" into Marshall-law before there could be any elections.

I do know the NWO have worked long and hard to achieve what they intend.

The following link is to David Icke's three-hour web-simulcast, followed by a warning being circulated on the internet.




Dear Family and Friends,

Have you heard of Brigitte Gabriel? She is a Lebanese Christian who grew up in Lebanon in the 70's, and finally escaped to freedom. Her story is extremely important for all to hear. Please click on this link to see her talk. I strongly urge all of you to see this and pass it along:



From her website:


A message from the President & Founder
Brigitte Gabriel 

Welcome, and thank you for taking the time to visit American Congress for Truth.

War has been declared on Christians, Jews, non-Muslims and secularists worldwide by Islamic extremists...simply because we are infidels according to their belief. As Islamic fundamentalism spreads its tentacles worldwide, it is crucial for the people of the Western world to understand the danger, know what to expect, and know what to do about it.

Threats and realities of forced conversions to Islam, beheadings, torture and murder are quickly becoming commonplace. They’re rarely mentioned in the news and when they are, it’s with a disclaimer…the word “insurgent” has replaced the truth of “terrorists.” 

Political correctness is killing us.

This Is The New Reality

We are in for the fight of our lives.
That we have not yet had another terrorist attack in the United States is remarkable, but it will happen. Al Queda keeps its promises.

How do I know this? I was born in Lebanon and raised as a Christian. When the Lebanese Civil War broke out, our family, and our Maronite community came under vicious attack by Islamic extremists. They promised to destroy us, and as you know from the recent war in Lebanon, the country is now nearly Islamic.

I was nearly killed by a mortar. Our home was destroyed. We lived in a bomb shelter for seven years. Most of my childhood friends were killed. That’s how I know.

We must make the connection between individual safety and a strong national defense, increase civic preparation and political responsibility, and train all Americans to become defenders of our community safety and national security.

"All that is required for evil to triumph is for a few good men to do nothing." 
Edmund Burke

Anguish struck the citizens of the United States of America on 9/11 as a handful of hateful men murdered nearly 3,000 innocent people. A heavy pall of grief covered our nation. Many of us wondered if we'd ever laugh again.

But 9/11 wasn't the only act of terrorism. Bali, London, Madrid, Jerusalem...the list goes on and on. Yet the West does not fully realize the bloodthirsty intentions of the menace of fundamental Islam. This enemy -- is relentless. It is determined.

Why Does Our Struggle Matter? It Matters Because...

If we don't win the war against Islamofascism other issues won't matter at all. 

We won't have an economy to worry about. 
We won't have equal rights for all. 
We won't have our cherished freedom. 
And we will live under Sharia Law. 

We Must Win This War

The enemy loves death -- far more than we love life.

The enemy uses children as human bombs, mothers as suicide bombers, men driven by the glory of death and the promise of eternal sexual bliss in heaven...and martyrdom on earth. This is the enemy reality: murder and death of "infidels" by any means for the glory of Allah.

The pain-rich attack of 9/11 changed most Americans lives forever, but it struck an especially sensitive chord with me. It reminded me that the entire world is under brutal threat and physical attack by the same radical Islamic ideology that massacred “infidels” in Lebanon during the Lebanese Civil War. 

The American Congress for Truth (ACT) was formed in June 2002 to clear away the fog of the brutal attack of September 11, 2001. Our purpose is to preserve our cherished values and freedoms. 

Our Members Include:

Jews, Arabs, Christians, and non-Muslims from all backgrounds both secular and religious, liberals and conservatives. These good people have put their differences aside to combat both anti-American and anti-Israel propaganda masquerading as anti-Imperialism and anti-Zionism: 

• in the Western media 
• among the intellectual elite 
• on American college campuses 
• in churches, synagogues and other places of worship 
• in business groups and civic meetings 
• wherever it exists

As America stood up against and defeated communism--now it is time to stand up and stare down the evil of religious bigotry and intolerance. So many times in history, citizens have done nothing...and evil prevailed.

"Evil unchecked grows. Evil tolerated poisons the whole system." 
Jawaharlal Nehru

We can see from history that this is true. We can see that today this is true. 

Join Us. Get Involved!

Together we can save our country and our freedom. You are the heroes who make our work possible. I especially thank you for helping me protect the country that has blessed me so much.

America, the dream that became my address. 

Brigitte Gabriel,
President and Founder, 
American Congress for Truth



Judgments, are they THE  truth, or your perception of the incident that you’re observing? 


Being there’s only one  THE TRUTH   that is change.  (please note that all that I speak about is MY truth and my observation of this life I live)  living inside of one’s box, not even recognizing that there’s so much more outside of ‘this box’, not recognizing that the blinders that were put into place from the beginning of this incarnation, all that we’ve been given, by parents, teachers, friends, everything we’ve listened to, taken on as  the truth, until we find out differently.  At this point in time, waking up to a reality that what we had been fed hasn’t been the entire truth,  ‘the media that we’ve listened to, how they ‘bend’  the truth to fit into what ‘they’ are told must be announced so the public will believe ‘them’. Remember the movie, ‘Good morning Vietnam’.   How the censorship dictated what was being allowed to be spoken.  When he spoke ‘THE TRUTH’  what happened, they pulled him out of there, no longer allowed to speak.


Look around, see what’s going on, I know you are, I know this because there’s the smallest percentage of people on this plant that is reading this at this time, recognizing that there’s only one law, that law is LOVE, the foundation of everything that we are, everything that is, everything that we were born into, this is why we’ve come here at this time, to bring that love back to the for front of everyone’s consciousness. Blanketing our surroundings with love, everywhere you are, everyone that comes into your space. Sharing a smile,


Each of us is a perfect emanation of the divine, judging another for being the ‘perfect’  person is insane.  This dogma that we’ve perpetrated from the beginning is coming to a screeching halt.


Here’s a personal story,  my brother died at the age of 38, massive heart attack,  he had a wife, two children,  his mother in law and my momma belonged to the same Jewish organization.  A few months after Eddie passed away,  there was  a fund raiser,  mom went,  she walked up to the table where  mother in law was to say hello.


The women spat at my momma,

She was so devastated she came straight home, she called me, telling me about this, asking me why she would do such a thing.  I said, I don’t have a clue.  I went on to say,  Momma, don’t think about it any longer,  God will take care of her, we don’t have to put any energy into this. Years passed, this women was in the hospital for 8 months, her departure from her physical life was painful, not a pleasant passing. When mom called to tell me about ‘her’ passing, I reminded her of the conversation we had, that God would take care of her.  You don’t get rewarded for being mean. It doesn’t work that way.


Those that we’ve talked about, those who say ‘they’ are in power. Well, I rest my case.  They will be taken care of.  I send love, no matter what. Does it serve me to be upset? Does it serve you to be upset, go tell the storm to stop. Tell the wind to cease blowing. Ask the stars to come closer.  Right.


Do you think that by putting energy into hating the government is going to make you feel better?  Do you think your judgment on your mate, your boss is going to make you feel better.  Do you believe that your complaint about your life is going to make you feel better.  STOP.  If not now, when?


When I’m asked “How are you?”  “Grand”,  they say, ‘grand’, their voice changes, they smile.  “Yes, grand, I’m writing my life’s script, why would I write anything else into it?”


Love is Grand,


August 27th

13 - Night (Akbal)

Where do the words go when I need them?  Hum, quiet, sounds, loud, no, none of this, double talk, single thinking, coughing, laughing, love, expression,

freedom, support, receiving  gifts from source.  What else?


How much freedom do we really have?  Rules, laws, with each new day there are new laws that are written, are we informed of them?  NO.  not until you ‘break’ one of them, you say, “I didn’t know.”  Ignorance is no excuse. That’s what you will be told. 


After re-reading George Orwell’s  1984, finding myself riddled with upset, and at times anger, seeing how our world is growing smaller by the minute, freedoms we had taken for granted is no longer the freedom I had grown up with.  This ‘puppet’ government is running a muck, like a mad dog invading a town, fear over riding the common senses that we were born with, hiding from ‘the dog’ as not to get in it’s way. Allowing it to continue to roam, we’re allowing our freedoms to be annihilated one breath at a time. 


For those that grew up in the 50’s, 60’s, as I had, we were trusted to do what we knew to be for the good of our community.  Taking care of the neighborhood, looking after one another.  Squealing wasn’t even thought of. We protected our family.  The family was the entire neighborhood.

Now, the children are told to ‘report’ anything they see that they think is of danger.  Where did all this come from?  So much fear being driven into the minds of the young.  Keep them sedated, keep feeding them what doesn’t support their young bodies.  Keep their minds focused on these little ‘games’,  make them beg for ‘junk’ food. Get them fatter, take away their ability to even have a desire to get outside and play.


Growing up in Los Angeles, all we wanted was to be outside. Our creative juices flowed endlessly.  Now, we have to set up, ‘play dates’, keep them entertained, where is the self?  Where does the stimulation come from?

Game boys?  This is pathetic. 


This advanced technology is fantastic, you wouldn’t be reading this if we hadn’t taken this knowledge to where it is at this time, yet, I believe that the introduction of television into the home is the demise of our intuition.  Chipping away at the freedoms we were born into. The choice is always left to the individual to decide which way to take anything that comes into ones consciousness.


So, what do we do now?  Placate the hierarchy, or take our lives back.

What does that look like?  Taking one’s ‘life back’.  By following your heart. The  desires that play around in your thoughts daily, yet most of us have a plethora of ‘reasons’ why we ‘can’t, won’t, not possible to do, so the desires are over ridden by the, have to’s.  I can’t walk out on my job, who will take care of the family.  They all need me, what will happen to them?    

Choosing to stay where you are, then work with it. Play with it all. The complaints won’t bring happiness, you know this, you’ve watched it over the years. 


My life didn’t stop when Ian left his 3D body. Doesn’t mean I don’t miss him, I miss him, everything that occurred during the time we had with one another was an amazing chapter in my life.

 Life is what one makes of it, it’s all choice, always, choice.  You’re at an intersection, which way to go?

Straight ahead, turn left, or right.  Then what, where will the road take you? Where do you want it to take you?


“If both the past and the external world exist only in the mind, and if the mind itself is controllable- what them?”  1984 George Orwell



What can I do about it?  I’ve heard that way to many times. Well, if you think you can’t do anything about ‘it’, then for sure that’s your reality.

You won’t do anything, you’ll keep doing what you’ve always done, and complain that your life sucks. 


Hello Matty,


This is strange for me to reach out in this way, but I had to let you know

that your January 2008 journal post moved me at the deepest level. Thank

you for your wise words and beautiful honesty. In January this year my

partner Bill passed from this life and it hit me very hard...Bill had been

the person who opened my eyes to the beauty of Mayan astrology and myth,

and since I met him I started looking for more information on the Maya. I

came across Dr. Calleman's site and then a friend showed me Ian's amazing

video. I remember the two of us watching it with Bill, and the words

spoken sparked the most amazing conversations! Now I find myself in my

favorite cafe, finding your journal magically, just moments after I said

to myself "If I had only loved him more, he never would have left me."

Your words brought me tears of joy when I was feeling sorrow. Thank you.

Thank you so much for reminding me of what I already know. The

synchronicities behind me finding your site when I did are too many to I will simply say, with all of my heart, I am here sending

you love, thanks, support and blessings.


This letter as so many have come to me, I read them knowing that my life has meaning, as does yours, if you don’t think you make a difference in the world, ask those who love you, they’ll tell you that without you there would be a huge void. So, when you sit with yourself, not knowing what to do, or what you want to do, or how you want to be, then you stop the flow that gives you juice, that brings a smile to your face, tears of joy that’s shared with loved one’s. 


In order to honor others, one must find the center point within,

not with-out.  We’ve believed that happiness comes from another, that’s the illusion that’s kept us prisoners. 


When I was in my early twenties,  I changed the color of my hair the way others would change their clothes.  Let it grow long then shave it. Didn’t matter what I did, the lasting joy hadn’t remained, it was a momentary fix.


I’ve watched children at Christmas time, opening one gift after another, where’s the joy in this?  Growing up the way I did, so grateful, we didn’t have things, finding an old tire in the alley, rolling it to school, finding a hiding place so we could pick it up when school was out so we could roll it home.


Playing stick ball in the street, or roll over.  Having an old tennis ball was a treasure.  Jumping rope, playing hide ‘n’ seek. 


Saturday mom would give me .50c,  I would go the Thrifty drug store, buy 3 candy bars for a dime, go to the movies where there would be a ‘double bill’, cartoons, and a news real of what was happening around the world.  After the first movie, they would turn up the lights and have a raffle,  people would win, a set of drinking glasses, towels, dishes.  Then the second movie would start. At the end of the day, I gave mom .5c change, and the .50c was a real silver coin.  When my children were of the same age, I gave the $5.00,

I told them when they had children they would be giving the $50.00 to do the same as I for .50c. . .  it’s insane, it’s all insane.  When the system collapses, which it will really soon, for those who are aware of this, and are prepared for this coming, all will continue to be filled with grace.  Then there are those who don’t have a clue as to what is around the corner, those are the ones that will freak out.  They aren’t’ prepared, they won’t have food to feed their family.  For the last two years I’ve been sharing my thoughts about what I’m seeing, asking people to make sure they have can food to last for 3 months,  now I don’t believe 3 months is enough.


In 1965, there were the Watts riots in Los Angeles, this was less then 20 miles from where I lived.  I watched it on T.V.  this was a cake walk compared to what I see is going to happen all across the globe.


I’ve listened to people say,  ‘Oh, this has happened before, we’ll bounce back.’

I shake my head, they’re not interested in what I know, or what I’m experiencing, or what the Maya are saying.  “Unsolicited advice is detrimental to my well being.”  I’m clear in keeping my mouth shut.

You have a choice, continue to read what I have to say, or delete it. Won’t matter to me, my life won’t change one way or the other.


If not now, when?

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