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Is A Test And
Personal Admission
I have
written many things to you all but none as personally serious as this
writing.
For the
past 7 months I have been working through or past or over a pain in
my jaw that I had thought was caused by a dental problem. I did go
to two different dentists who did X-rays and told me that there was
an abscess under a couple of teeth. I did not have the money to get
the teeth fixed so I just kept going and doing talks, doing what I
rationalized was more important. A couple of Advil pills would get
me through the talks that I did but the money received from them was
usually just enough to get me to the next presentation. (And some
times not even that much.) Not enough money at any rate to get the
teeth fixed or even pulled. I did not see the condition as particularly
dangerous, just fairly uncomfortable. You see, I kept thinking (Note*
my mind not my intuition) that soon I would be able to get the symptoms
handled if I just got enough people involved with this information
to economically support the dental work needed.
I must
admit that I was not living my own truth of following my intuition
and I rejected the possibility that anything serious was amiss with
my body. I was wrong. It has been over the last 7 months that things
started going south physically and in the last 3months a swelling
occurred under my jaw line in the lymph gland. On March 10th, I had
my right tonsil surgically removed and a biopsy taken of my Lymph
gland. The tests on the tissue samples have now come back from the
lab and the prognosis is that I have a type of cancer in my right
lymph gland a Lymphoma and I was told by the doctor on March 23rd
that I would have to go into radiation treatment or I will expire
of the cancer.
My
admission to you also has to do with the fact that I have not been
in my own integrity to the degree that I have been suggesting as imperative
to others. Though I have pursued holistic medicine methods I did not
go to a physician. I had been making my efforts towards alerting others
more important than taking care of my own physical well being.
I
have been giving as much of myself as I could conceive of doing and
now I must turn around and open to receive. It’s pretty easy
to see how this flow now either becomes balanced rather quickly or
I will not be able to continue to assist others much into the future.
I am hereby declaring myself open for alternatives, second or third
opinions, donations, toward my needed treatments and or all of your
prayers that this situation gets remedied soon.
Over
the last few years I have received communications from people from
all over the planet expressing their gratitude for the information
that has been researched and put forth through the recorded presentations,
web page, on air and in personal appearances. Many have asked how
they can help. In the past I have personally thanked those individuals
for their kind words and usually answered that by passing Dr. Carl
J. Calleman’s research on the Mayan calendar to others you are
doing a great service. Now, I really do need some direct help for
myself. First, I want to thank everyone for the support that I have
already received to get me this far, including the loving being (who
does not want their name announced) who loaned me $3000.00 dollars
for the doctors who then performed the operation to remove the tonsil
and did the lab tests. At least now I know what is up and can directly
address the physical condition, find a direction and come to a resolution.
Please,
if you know of any products, centers or practitioners of methods to
cure the lymph gland cancer or if you can help provide research on
such methods please send to ian@mayanmajix.com.
If you can send donations of any kind to help cover the costs of the
possible treatments I will humbly and thankfully accept those gifts
and apply them straight away to the rebuilding of my body’s
integrity from the ground up. Please
find my heart open to any assistance in any way that you feel you
can provide.
And Now
Here Is the Test Part
“We
are all one and there is no other or them” is the basic truth
that is being tested.
All of
the wonder, pleasure or trouble in our experience is a reflection
of only our own selves. The Mayan phrase “In Lak ech,”
“you are another myself.” says it all. Along with that
is coupled the dramatic acceleration of Creation that produces more
possibilities to happen both good and bad. I have stepped forward
in the last few years to discuss these ideas with humanity and as
a result I have called these issues right down on to myself to be
dealt with. Either we are each manifesting our own reality right now,
or we are not. Evidently I have manifested this test for myself in
order to put it on display for all to see but especially myself. It
is my perception that we all are being tested or will be tested about
these issues concerning the nature of creation. I just happened to
be somebody who has chosen to share these subjects through talks and
writings and thus, my test is here and now demanding my immediate
attention and healing.
So, starting
from the premise that we and all of creation are one; by accepting
and loving my whole self (all of my experience) and by not repulsing
what could be seen as negative elements of my experience, darkness,
disease, Bushies and economic/social collapse for example, this test
will be passed. If on the other hand, I reject certain realities and
wall myself off from them by resisting what ever is perceived as evil,
I will further suffer the effects of that rejection personally and
very directly. Right here, in dramatic fashion, are the very issues
that I have been speaking to the world about. This leads me to perceive
that my current situation is no random accident (of course there are
no accidents) but rather it is a set up to assist the truth coming
forth about each of us creating our own reality. My intent is to gather
up and acknowledge the love that I have generated in the world this
lifetime and to apply that love to shifting my current reality. In
many articles I have said “Allow Everything”. As of now
I must personally live those words not only to be in my integrity
but to literally survive.
The pass
or fail of this test could hardly be more important.
So
what do I do now? I reach out, I ask for help, I surrender and I connect.
It is through our connection and acknowledgements that solutions are
provided to any and every situation. Even if this is a more critical
situation it is really no different. So let us take the opportunity
to do this healing together as the one that we are and then let us
celebrate this truth together as we heal each other. Thank you for
the love, the knowledge, courage and the reason to go on that you
provide. Thank you all.
In
service to the God~Us,
Ian Xel
Lungold
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